Alrighty, I realize it has been literally forever since I wrote an update or anything on here! So here it is. I've been quite busy lately. Deviantart has sort of fell off the spectrum for me this last while. I'm sorry about that, I will try to be more active on here as much as I can. Here are some of the things that have kept me busy and/or I am dealing with right now.
1. I have a job now. Yes. I have a job! I got the job back in August and I'm working for a contractor called the PIC group. It's sort of like a temp agency, so I am working at one of the 2 factories in my city. What I am doing is inspecting the parts for quality. It's not really my cup of tea, but hey, it's a job.
2. I am still leading my Young Adults Group every Saturday, and that's going quite well.
3. I am getting really anxious about my upcoming 2 years clean mark (Coming up on November 5th) I don't know why, maybe because it's scary, or maybe because I'm having some doubts about making it so far. I really don't know, and I haven't really told anyone about this because everyone is so proud and rooting for me and I'm afraid that knowing this would just make them worry about me, and I don't want that. I just keep thinking about self harm and then I think of how far I have come, and that I can't possibly relapse. But I've also thought about the fact that people say relapse is inevitable. So does that include me? One of my biggest fears is relapse - especially after making it so long. There are these random parts of me that miss self injury. But there are other parts of me that never want to do it again.
I keep thinking about how many people I have helped and inspired, and that's so amazing. That is one of the things keeping me going. The other thing is God and His strength, because I never would have stopped without Him. So I guess this whole situation revolves around the fact that recovery is just hard. It's totally worth it, but it's hard.
Yeah, that's pretty much it. I also have a blog now, if you'd like to follow it.
teaandjesus.wordpress.com/