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Don't I deserve it?Why is the flesh so fragile?
Soft skin turns to jagged red lines
The day before the snow came
Three years ago so similar
Right to this day, before the moon came out
This life I live, it frightens them
One week ago I finally went insane
I cut some more jagged lines
Right down to the bone, my love
I hope this hurts you
As much as it hurts me every day
Don't I deserve it, my love?
After all, I blame you
All of my insecurities, spoon fed
Only by you, my sweet love
So go home, let me rest

Do I not deserve it, my love?
BrokenThere is a girl who denied what's right,
'Cause when she was alone, she couldn't fight.
She started losing hope in everything,
Stopped trying to see what the future might bring.

She gave up on God in Heaven above,
She lost her path from the power of love,
She wanted everything to go away,
She tried to take her life one day.

She felt caged up like a bird,
She screamed so loud, but nobody heard.
Ignored, as if she weren't there,
A feeling of emptiness and despair.

She kept so much bottled up inside,
She always lied so she could hide.
Ashamed for always wanting to die;
She never looked people in the eyes.

Behind her eyes were wor
Don't You Know?Don't you know that you're taking her for granted?
She's not going to be there for you for long if you're never there for her
Why don't you call her every once in a while, see if she's okay
She'll appreciate it more than you think
Show her that you truly love her, tell her she's your everything
Just prove to her that she means something to you
'Cause right now she may feel unappreciated
Right now she may feel useless
So prove to her that she's special
Prove to her that she's the only one for you
'Cause you could be slowly losing her
While you spend your time doing nothing
Meet up with her every once in a while
Before she walks aw
Was It All A Lie?The funny thing is,
You can walk past me
And totally ignore me
Acting like I don't exist
Without an inch of guilt in your black heart
After all the things we have been through
After all the times we have been there for each other
And you act like it never happened

The funny thing is,
You can look in the mirror
Thinking you're the best
Thinking you are too good for everyone
After all the things I have done for you
After all the things we have put each other through
Through thick and thin
And totally forget that I was once in your life
That you needed me

That you loved me

It's like you're a totally different per
DreamsDreams are such powerful things.
They can bring you you happiness,
They can bring pain.
They can grant you fortune,
Or even grant you shame.
SufferingTears crashing around me
as all I do is feel this hurt
The pain deep inside of me
I can't bear to go on much longer

The eyes of glass
the heart that aches
I can't control
the urges i feel inside me

My mind takes over control
of this hurt left unknown
I can't help but to cry
and have the tears falling down my face

I can't take this much longer
so please go on without me
The truth behind every story
the deep hurt i feel inside

I feel like a failure at life
no hope for this life to go on
so please leave me here to suffer
Maybe one day it will all change
Beautiful Broken ButterflyLike breakable glass
Something I want- No...
Need to protect

You don't understand
You probably won't ever
Why I used to act so impulsive
Get so angry
Threaten and almost carry out
My threats

But now I keep my distance
I hurt you too,
you know...
I can't help it
I break a lot of things
You've said it countless times in the past
And I just know
But I want this to last

I see you as fragile paper
Beautiful as the last butterfly
Weak as a new bud in winter
But strong as anyone I know

Built from stone
But light as a feather
Able to weather any storm
Able to float down
Defying gravity

Don't forget me
Don't hate me
Like a festering wound
Don't
self hatredI don't know how you could see this body as perfect
When all I see is mistakes

I'm not sure how you looked into my eyes and said you saw angels
when all I can see is deep darkness hiding demons in the shadows

You claimed I'm was too skinny and needed to eat
I say I'm not skinny enough and refuse to touch anything

You said I should open
I say I'm under lock and key

You said you where leaving
I want you to stay

You said I was beautiful
I only see ugliness

You said you'd return
I knew you wouldn't

Your last words to me where full of hate
and finally we agreed on something
Little girlLittle girl,
Little girl,
Bullies gonna make you hurl,
Little girl,
Little girl,
What does it feel like to be thrown away,
Little girl,
Little girl,
What would it feel like to make them pay,
Little girl,
Little girl,
Don't you care?
Little girl,
Little girl,
That they were never there?
Little girl,
Little girl,
What would you say,
Little girl,
Little girl,
If they all just went away?
What if?If life as we know it ended today, would you fall to your knees and begin to pray?

Or try and make amends for sins of before, and hope it will lead you to heavens door.

Or would you act like you don't want to know, and hope it's all just a show?

Would you hold your love ones tight, or do something crazy on the last night?

But if it's going to end today, do you even have time to say,

Sorry for all your wrongs, or just tell them what you thought all along.

Even the ones who believed it was true, will be shocked that it actually came through.

So in the end there's not much to say, it's the end of the world.

Have a nice day.
Need to Feel PainI feel the hurt
every time I look back
the Pain I always feel
deep inside me

I always have these urges
that I need to feel pain...
it was the only true feeling I felt
and without it I'm lost in this world

I want to cut my arms...
I want to cut my legs
just to watch the blood pouring
and to feel the pain deep inside

I want to hurt...
to know that I can feel in this world
I need to feel pain...
its like a drug to me...

The cuts I love
the pain i can feel
I just want my arms to bleed
and to feel the scars....

Cutting every inch of me
just to feel the pain deep inside
To watch the blood pour down...
on the body that deserve
Why not give up?What do you say when life's in your way?

What do you do when you a'int got a clue?

Where do you go when you'er lost and alone?

What do care when when you a'int got a home?

Who do you love when no one loves you?

Why go on with nothing for you?

Why not sit and give up?

Why not just throw up you hands and say well fuck?

Why not end you'er life and leave all it behind?

Well my sweet darling heres the reason why.

You never know when you will meet a new friend.

You never know who will give you a clue.

You never can tell who will light your way out of hell.

You never know when a home will resurface again.

And you never know who will br
TearsTears are not a sign of weakness
tears don't mean that you aren't strong
tears are pain that hid inside you
tears mean you held on for far too long

Crying doesn't mean you've given up
it doesn't mean that you are done
it does not mean that you are broken
so babe just let your sweet tears run

Each tear contains a piece of you
damaged, broken, beaten down
tears are pain you push away
tears are sadness washing out

So don't be afraid to let them run
don't hold in your glistening tears
let them pull out the damage
that you collected all your years
GoodbyeEven though your heart is grieving
Look into the sky and keep believing
'Cause you know that deep down through all the pain
There will be a day when you are free again
I was there when life turned to death
I was there when you breathed your last breath
Now I am here with a look full of fear
Too scared to move, my eyes filled with tears
I watch you walk, amazed at the sight
As you follow the trail of light
You turn around and smile at me
You say that you have been set free
You start to walk towards the light
Then all is silent, an empty night
I stare in wonder, my mouth is dry
Tears trickle down my face,
As I whisper
Goodbye
Battle ScarsLife is deciduous.
You can see for yourself with the way
She sheds her skin
So that you can see inside of her
Where her secrets lie.
She matters
Just as much as the homeless man on the street
Rummaging through other’s belongings
Thrown away.
Do not discard her.
Listen as her lips move and make sound.
They speak of elegant treasures lining the seashore.
She will tell you that even the seagulls have purpose.
Her lips move slowly.
They speak of impossible beginnings.
She will tell you the tale of two lovers
Who have never met before.
She spins words like falling stars
Fast and with magnitude.
Hear her.
Really l
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You Broke Me...

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You took everything
You told me I was beautiful
Wasn't that a lie?

You took my innocence
I know you enjoyed it
I could see it
Right before my eyes

You tied my heart in knots
Now I feel so strained
Just cramped

You never wanted to hurt me
But it was your choice
You broke me anyway...
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:( *sigh* Again, I guess I'm still not over him.
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Mood: Love ~arualcat Nov 12, 2012
A good description of what you feel when something with somebody is broken. Great poem.
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*Nessie905 Nov 12, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you! :hug:
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*DerelictVampire Nov 8, 2012
Really strong piece. That last line--it's wrenching.
As for the subject... :hug: You have such a big capacity for goodness and years and years ahead of you to share your love with someone who appreciates it, and I have no doubt you'll find that person.
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*Nessie905 Nov 9, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you! :hug: I hope so :)
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~pikachu23 Nov 6, 2012
it's hard to get over someone you loved. to be honest, after 5 years I'm still not over one of my ex's.. I will always love him and the pain will always be with me. I know how you are feeling and it sucks, but you learn to live with the pain and it does dull over time.
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*Nessie905 Nov 7, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Oh, I hope so... It hurts. And it sucks.
Thank you for the comment.
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