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Long Term Effects of Self-Harm

Journal Entry: Thu Jun 12, 2014, 8:21 PM


Hey guys. I'd just like to talk about this topic because I seem to be experiencing it lately. 
I've recently been wondering how long my past of Self-Harm will effect me...
I dealt with it for 4 years. Now I am in recovery 7 months. Meaning I am 7 months clean.

During the past 7 months, it's been difficult, I have to say - but with God, I can do it, and He gives me the strength to keep going.
The first 3 months were the hardest for me to get through. I had the most urges in those 3 months, and it was so hard, but I pulled through it. During the remaining months, things have deffinately been better for me :)
But I still face the struggle of seeing my scars every day and because of that, it's a constant reminder of what I've been through for the past 4 years give or take. 

Now, I've gained a significant amount of self-confidence (all from God), so I always go out with short-sleeves because of the nice weather. And that - of course - brings the awareness that yes, people may stare at my arms. But I don't really care what they think because all that matters is what God thinks. But it's still hard to ignore sometimes. Considering it's sometimes the first thing people notice (especially if I wear no sleeves at all) I try not to let it get to me and stay positive because that part of my life is in the past.

I went to the doctor yesterday to get a refill on my medication - and she literally said my arm is 'pretty terrible'. 
It took some time to reassure her that indeed I am better and have completely stopped cutting.
But the whole scenario annoyed me quite a bit. I mean, yeah, my arm probably does look 'pretty terrible' to some people - but that doesn't mean they should point it out and actually tell me to my face. Like, yeah...Thanks.

Anyways, another thing that I consider a long term effect of self-harm is the bad dreams I have gotten. They haven't been happening in over a month (which is great) but there was a period of time where I would get these weird dreams involving some kind of cutting. It was quite unnerving. But I pushed past these, because I know it was just the enemy trying to tempt me into relapsing.
It will not work!!! Self-Harm is in the past and as long as I have God, I will never ever go back to it.
I am on the next chapter of my life, and nobody can stop it - or my recovery.
/End rant

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